Tuesday, March 2, 2010

Funk

I'm in a funk. The sunny weather isn't helping it, my cute puppy isn't fixing it, nothing seems to be making me happy right now. I'm dreading finishing my last week of BCP b/c I know i'm going to go back to the doc and still have a friggin' cyst waiting for me. I bought a super hot dress to wear to a friend's wedding in 2 weeks but i feel like returning it and saving the money towards our impending doom of IVF which we will never be able to afford (well we could afford it but my super cheap husband will likely never agree to it). I don't even feel like getting dressed up for the wedding and I feel far from hot enough to even put on such a sweet dress. My dog is acting out. He is tearing up anything he can get his paws on while we are at work. Not furniture (thank goodness) but his puppy training pads, papers, kleenex, toilet paper. It is really freakin' annoying and weird because he only started doing this a few weeks ago. My hubs is fine, but just fine. It's our anniversary coming up and neither one of us has brought up if we are going to do anything. I don't even care. My birthday is next week. Sucks. I am now officially in my 30's. Being just 30 sucked but 31...ugh...its disgusting. I'm super annoyed at work. I can't stand my boss and don't feel like i'm doing a good job. Plus, I have to see Fertile Myrtle everyday! I don't even know what I want right now. I'm just in a funk. Actually, I know exactly what I want...duh!
well, i'm off to walk this little rascal. Atleast its not snowing.
:)LTB

7 comments:

  1. Shoot...did I rub off on you??? Hang in there. We all have those days (trust me, I know!) It totally sucks being in this limbo land and I really hope you can find a way to keep at it once those darn cysties are GONE.

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  2. Umm, hello Egg from yesterday (and the day before that and the day before that...). I swear, the break time is the freaking WORST! You have nothing to think about but how much this all sucks. It blows. UGH.

    My cyst took 2 months to go away (brutal), but that won't happen to you b/c you're on the BCPs!! I wasn't on BC the first month (grrr to the attending doc who didn't put me on them)...cyst grew...second month I took BCPs and it gloriously went away. I'm hoping that is EXACTLY what happens to you. One more week. I'll count 'em down with you!!!

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  3. We all have days like the one you're having...it sucks!! You are in my thoughts! ((HUGS))

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  4. I'm sorry you're having such a rough time. Like everyone said, it happens to all of us and it will pass. It will. And you'll be back on the saddle very soon and I'm hoping you get a nice little surprise. =)

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  5. Sorry for the downer days, we all have em esp when it's on a break cycle.

    Hang in there! ((hugs))

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  6. I just want to come up there and give you a ginormous ((((((((hug))))))))). The in between was always the worst for me. I too thought we would never be able to afford IVF. Now we are getting ready next month. We saved...and saved...and saved. I have also found some cost saving programs, begged for discounts, and shopped around. ANYTHING I can do to help, if and when the time comes, I would be more than happy to help!

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  7. We've all been there. I felt exactly the same way yesterday. I wish I could just give you a big hug right now and tell you it's going to pass. Because it will. Hang in there, girlie. We're all here for you!

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