Inconclusive and unexplained. That seems to be the story of this IF journey for me. Seriously I think I would rather have some terrible diagnosis than have another doctor say "we just don't know" with a stupid look on his face. Today I had my HORRIFYING HSG. Just like last time it was agonizing, not sure if i'm just a wimp but it hurt so bad it took my breath away and I had to lay on the table for atleast 10 minutes afterwards sipping water and sweating like I had just run a marathon! I didn't ask the doc all the questions I should have b/c I was feeling so horrible and just wanted to get the heck out of there. But from what I gathered, my endometrium and uterine cavity look fine (except at one point he asked me if I'd ever had an iud put in...not sure what that was about) and my right tube is open. Left tube....inconclusive. WTF! It's either open or not! And the most annoying part is now if I do have one closed tube that just means its extra impossible for me to get preggers and IVF will probably be necessary (which means HUGE bucks out of my pocket), however, in Ontario (where I live) if BOTH tubes are blocked then IVF is COVERED under the provincial health care system and would be FREE! WTF!!!! I know its terrible to say but at this point I just wish both my friggin' tubes were blocked so we could get this show on the road and just do IVF! ugh.
Anyways, that's my huge vent for the day, I'm going to go take a bath with Cosmo (he loves to come right in the bubble baths with me and then I put some towels in the dryer and make them really warm and throw him right in the dryer with them! He looks so cute all curled up in the towels in the dryer!) then i'm off to bed. I missed work today due to the hellish appt I had so I have to get up early to figure out what the heck I'm teaching tomorrow!
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