I hate sitting around. I hate being indoors. I hate bedrest. I am not only bored out of my skull...but I have a permanent headache and gross feeling of nausea. I don't feel like i'm actually going to puke but just generally gross and queasy. I'm not sure if this is what morning sickness is or if I am just "sick" from being trapped on my couch. Of course I don't want to sound like a jerk for being in my situation. I mean, I'm pregnant! This has been my goal and my dream for sooooo long but I just feel really gross. So amid my happiness there is grossness. I also feel like a total sloth. I am usually an exercise freak. Not necessarily hard core running or training but I like to walk tons of miles everyday and just generally be really active. I feel like already I'm becoming a soft gummy bear. Big deal right...i'm pregnant so i'm allowed. But it still feels gross. Plus, I still haven't told anyone (except my doctor sister who helped me with my freak out episode on Sunday) so I feel like a big fraud lying to everyone (my family has no clue I'm on bedrest) and people at work have been calling/emailing asking what's up. I have just been avoiding the calls so I don't have to lie! We are planning to tell my family this weekend when my parents get back from Florida and hubs parents next week when we go there for a belated mother's day celebration. I'm not planning on saying anything at work until 3 months...which luckily will be just 2 weeks after I return from my bedrest leave. I also feel really guilty sitting at home doing F-all and still getting paid to do my job. I feel totally capable of working and like this bedrest is just overkill. but of course...I will not risk anything for the safety of my little lima bean!
Hope you are all having a great day. I'm off to go watch more SATC. Its on perma-play on Cosmo-TV all day ! woo hoo!