11 weeks!

How Far Along? 11 weeks

Maternity Clothes? Not yet but this weekend I wandered into the maternity store but then I quickly ran out because I felt like I really didn't belong. I felt like a kid in a porno shop! I felt like the staff were looking at me thinking what is that little girl (I look pretty young and I was dressed in total grubs so I probably looked extra young) doing in here. I didn't feel "worthy" of being in there just yet. I didn't want to get laughed at! But, I did buy a pair of cheap linen capris for work in a size bigger than I usually get. I wasn't going to buy anything for this awkward stage but I am sick of being uncomfortable in my usual clothes. I did hate buying a size bigger, I think I might have more mental struggles with the body image part of pregnancy than I anticipated. I'll deal with it as it comes!

Stretch Marks? No. But my boobs are veinier (not sure if that's a word...more veins...!)

Sleep? Good. I didn't even wake up to pee last night. But at the same time of course that freaks me out too.

Best Moment of the Week? Going to the gym for a light workout and taking a massive bike ride with hubs and Cosmo on the weekend! I felt like my old self again! But of course...some minor freaking out is trying to sneak up on me because of it.

Movement? Nada.

Food Cravings? Fruit: Melon, cherries, mangos, yummy!

Gender? In laws think its a girl. They really don't have a clue.

What I miss? My cute summer outfits that are out of the question now. I guess I'll have to get some cute pregnancy outfits!

What I'm looking forward to? Getting to hear my baby on the doppler soon, first OB appt on Monday, end of first trimester in a week!

Weekly Wisdom: It's better to splurge a little bit and be comfy than torture yourself in too small clothes.

Milestones: No blood/spotting for a full week!

Emotions: Pretty happy. Irritable though. I seem to be picking on hubby a lot lately and I should stop. But he's such an easy target (no excuse I know!) Plus we haven't had sex in 9 weeks so I fell a bit distant from him. I always feel closer to him and we are just "better" all around when we are having regular sex. I'm nervous for my OB appt because he might say "still no sex", and I'm also nervous he might say, "go ahead with sex". I'm nervous to go ahead b/c what if sex makes me bleed again or what if it is all weird b/c now i'm preggo and we haven't done it in forever! I feel like a virgin again! but maybe that's a good thing!

Well, that's all I got.

Oh, and someone asked how much my doppler was...It was $130 including shipping and we got it in one day. But, still no heartbeat heard as of yesterday.

Hope you guys are having a great week. The weather here in Toronto is so glorious I'm just loving it! I really should be living full time in California where they have this weather permanently!

:)LTB