So yesterday I was reading someone else's blog that was talking about taking drugs (prescription or over the counter) during pregnancy. And i'm freaked. So, a long time ago I had MAJOR anxiety problems and was put on Effexor 225mg a day. I stupidly obeyed my doc not realizing that this is one of the most PAINFUL drugs to get off of. A few years ago I started to reduce my dosage and everytime I cut out a pill it was AGONIZING. Shots of electricity shooting through your head, dizziness, nausea, diarreah, blurred vision, like horrible side effects. Now I am down to taking only 37.5mg a day. However, now that I'm preg I want to for sure get off this med. The doctors say that the side effects from going from 37.5mg to nothing is the WORST. So i'm freaked. Last night I didn't take my pill, thought I'd just tough it out and feel sick for a while and deal with it. However this morning I couldn't get out of bed because I couldn't see straight. Took the dog for a walk and don't even remember where we walked. Feel in a complete daze. About an hour ago I caved, I took the pill. I feel horrible, I feel sad, I feel scared. I know I will talk to my doc about this but I know they will say to either stay on it (known side effects for the baby could be trouble feeding, sleeping and irritability at birth- obviously because they would be having the same withdrawl effects from it that I do!!! no way do I want my babe to have those feelings!). I feel helpless and frustrated with myself. Anyone have any experience or advice for this type of thing?
On a more positive note, I'm still pregnant. I needed reassurance last night so I bought another test and POAS. It was immediately positive. yippee. Just a tiny bit of reassurance helps.
I have not had any nausea or morning sickness and I don't feel really much more tired than I normally do. I am however thickening up, bloated and my boobs have grown ALOT! This started with the progesterone suppositories but has been getting worse (better? according to hubs yes!) And they hurt too.
2 weeks to us #1. Can't wait.
I also want to do a shout out to Al who got a surprise amazing BFP! She is my pregnant twin! And to Andrea who is waiting to hear how her embabies are developing! Keeping my fingers crossed! And to A plus B waiting for C who is starting her stims for this month's first monitored cycle! Go Girls!!!!
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